What it takes to…

What do you think about being judged?

The judgment which is based on your nature. The way you behave with others.

How do you feel when people judge you on the basis of your sexual desires?

When you think you are more approachable! When it becomes the reason for most of the boys to talk to you in any sense. The way their talks changes into sex-chats and they say whatever they want to say. It seems like you have no feelings, no self-respect and you can be used anytime, in any sense according to their mood, leisure and time.

This happens when they get to know that you are cool with the stuff. You think it’s fine with your closed ones, but sometimes(*mostly) it’s not. You are taken for granted. People do think that being so frank and open-minded will help to get laid on the bed easily. Then this leads to the breaking of bonds, you lose your friends.

How about helping someone?

Sometimes helping someone leads to the biggest problems in your own life. In order to take care of others, you lose your worth. Where is the problem? The people? You? Situations? Emotions? Ego? Revenge?

Oh! Back bitching is the thing we all hate the most. What if you break your relations because of a third person?

We all hear rumours about ourselves almost daily. The thing which makes us feel bad is when our own friends believe in them and judge us. Things may break your heart, you may feel overstressed, overthinking is obvious. What happens next? You stop talking! You start ignoring! You start avoiding! The best ones of your life become one of the lost friends.

A lot of things hurt us. We all face issues. But Life goes on. The milestones change sometimes but the road of the journey of life remains the same.

I wonder, What it takes to judge others? And…. what else does it take to judge our own self!

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Unsaid Goodbyes

Life is a journey and we all are just travellers here. The journey where we meet a lot of new people and come close to some. Do you really remember the times when you meet them? The times between saying a Hello and then a Goodbye! The journey between these two words might be short but definitely, it gives you a lot of memories.

The happy moments after your first hello and the sad moments close to a goodbye are worth to remember. Some goodbyes really break you, as you are not expecting them to happen. The happiness comes faster than you realise and the pain of farewell leaves slowly.

The most heartbreaking are the unsaid goodbyes. Where you don’t see the person going but they leave you when you need them the most, even when they know that there is no better company than them to you. You wait for them to turn over, but they go far, far away. Here standing at the same point, waiting for them is not a good option. Remember, life doesn’t stop. Whether you need them the most or they are only ones with whom you can share your feelings, love, sorrows. Just remind your own self that there is no better company than your own self. You have to take care of yourself, build your confidence again and walk on the path again. It really doesn’t matter who has left the path even when it is eating your soul. You just have to look up, see the shining stars and smile.

It breaks my heart when I hear about the car accidents. We have no idea which minute is going to be the last minute of our life. We leave our homes to roam around. But who knows where our fate is taking us to!

There is no greater appreciation than moving on with wounds open. People will come again to help you to walk. But you should be able enough to pour salt on your own wounds so that nobody else can.

“Patjarh me jo phool murjha jatey hain,

wo bahaaron k anne se khilte nahin.

Kuch log jo ik roz bichad jatey hain,

wo haazaaron k anne se milte nahin.

ik baar chle jatey hai jo din-raat-subh-sham,

wo phir nahi aatey.”

I know, you can never replace the people who are gone. But, you can teach yourself how to live without them. Life is a journey and we are not going to live here forever. So, learn to let go and smile even with tears in your eyes.

Hauling the love

It was the same time after a year. They were at the same place under the same sky. This time there was no boundary between them. It was only the love which was restricting them to look into each other’s eyes.

He was standing three steps away from her. She stepped back and fixed an angle from where she could see him. She knew there is something with this guy’s smile. The smile which is very rare to see, which hides a million of mysteries under it. The person who smiles like this has a lot of unshed tears. She wanted to live that smile with him. That evening, she contacted him and they started talking.

He was the person who meant the most to her after a few months. They used to stay together the whole day, used to eat together and even those “late night chats”. They were not into a relationship but their relation didn’t require any definition. Time got passed and they started talking less. Even after miles of distance, they had their feelings attached. The craving for meeting each other was still the same.

A year passed and a lot of things had been changed. They were in front of each other but with a whole different feeling. This time, there was no fear of getting separated. Both of them knew that the love and understanding for each other will always remain the same. They hugged each other while leaving and smiled.

She went back to her room and slept. The night was calm for the first time.

‘Zaruri tha teri rooh se milna,

ehsas nahi hota warna berukh zindagi ki khushion ka’

 

 

Touch

“Do you know how does a girl feel when someone touch her?” She asked while offering him the tea.

“Ofcourse she would be feeling romantic with those sensational touches!” He replied.

“What if somebody touches her soul?”

He started looking into her eyes. Her question had made him speechless.

“I…I don’t know, she might faaa..fall in love, I guess!” His mumbled.

“…and what if that touch had made her a lost soul with broken pieces?”

…the naked body, which she had never shown to anybody else. The scars on that body, which you covered with your bare hands. The beauty which only you had seen, the beauty which you always wanted to be left uncovered. The presence of hairs on her body were not making any hurdle to run your fingers on her soft skin.

When her pain was the pleasure of the moment. The two bodies were not allowing the air to cross. The taste of lips was enough to meet the need to thirst. When you were worried for her mood. A care was all what you were offering her. The constant little kisses on her lips were satisfying the need of food for her. Those lovebites had marked the initials of your love. When you were close to each other, far from the eyes of sky, in the dark aura with the sweet smell of your bodies.

The little secret which you never wanted to be exposed. Where your love left partial, here was the moment when you touched her soul.

“…and leaving her without saying a goodbye make her a broken piece of glass with sharp edges and then she cuts everyother touch because she never wants to feel the same.” He said without looking at her and left the nightmare. She woke up and sighed. It was the same day a year ago! It was the same feeling she had felt when he left back then.

Thoughts

Since so many days, my mind is struggling with a question which might be so simple for others but a complete tragedy for me.

This question struck me about two weeks ago,

‘How well do you know yourself?’

It is so easy to judge others. But is it easy to judge your own self? Why does it hurt so much when someone points you out for the thing that you are not ready to accept.

How do your tears define you?

Are you sensitive? Are you afraid to lose your closed ones? Are you an overthinker? Do little things in life make you cry?  and people out there call you ‘WEAK’ just because of those few drops of tears.

Darling, just don’t judge the strength of a person on the basis of his/her tears. You have no idea what the other person is going through. How strong he would have been to handle all the problems!

Just don’t be afraid of your feelings. Nothing is permanent in life. Nobody is permanent in your life. People change and so do you. Sometimes it’s hard to live without the ones you love but accept it, nobody stays in your life except your family.

As they say, Action speaks, Words don’t. Life a happy life. Let the worries go. Let your dreams fly. Let the people go. LIfe will be so peaceful when you enjoy your own company.

 

Cold

It was the end of December. Chilling winters were freezing the bones. Even a lot of warm clothes were not enough to keep the body warm. On the other side of a railway station, a little boy was waiting for his mother to come. All in rags, he was playing on the footpath. Unaware of the hunger, a smile was there on his face. There were no luxuries to simplifytheir hard situations, 2 stomachs without food, 2 shivering bodies without the blanket and their little family with no source of income.

His mother came, holding some pieces of cardboard in her hands.

“Come here son, It’s time to sleep.” His mother called him.

She dispersed the cardboard pieces on the ground and laid over it. The little boy came and hugged her while lying beside his mother.

After a moment of silence, the little one said,”Ahh! It would be so hard to survive in this chilling cold for those who don’t have these cardboard pieces, right mother!”

 

Whenever I see myself in hard times, this story always reminds me to smile. I have read it when I was just 7 and still inspires me to stay happy with what I have.

Titillate

“Don’t spoil my big day. Stop this drama.” He shouted at me while throwing me away.

“I don’t want you to be someone else’s.” My sobbing heart replied.

It was just two months after my mother’s death and my father was going to marry another lady. She was of course not like my mother. But my father was my father only, still he was not behaving like one.

I was just 13 when my mother kissed my forehead for the last time. Everyday after coming from school, I used to hug her. The warm hands used to titillate my scalp, to make me feel relaxed. All that glimpse was going through my mind. Being the single child, I was a pampered child. Mom, dad, me and grandfather were living a happy life and then my mother left us crying.

My opinion was not under consideration as I was considered as a small child. All the rituals were being performed at my house. A little girl with empty stomach from last two days was standing in a corner and crying badly. Her eyes were on the main gate waiting for a person to come and say,”Baby, I’m here, in front of you.” Her ears were starving to hear her mother’s voice. She wanted her father to listen to her. But no one asked her what was she feeling. It was like a Inscrutablemoment, she wanted this to tell everyone but was unable to.

The wedding day was about to end but my heart was still reckless. I was not ready to accept anyone else at my mother’s place. My father had no care for me. He was happily married now. He didn’t talk to me as I was crying and creating a ‘drama’.

“Don’t shout at her. Do you even know she hasn’t eaten anything since last three days?” My aunt tried to talk to my father.

“Let her die. If she is not happy with happiness, I don’t need her either.” The words shook my heart.

I slept crying.

A lady was standing with a sad face at bakery in the nightmare. She was asking the owner to pack 2-3 cakes.

“Listen dear! Pack this pudding also, it’s her favorite. My baby hasn’t eaten anything from last three days.” She asked the owner with her eyes filled with water.

Next morning, I woke up with my tummy full. My mother had fed me. My stomach and soul were full with love. I was able to feel her hand titillating my hair. I was no more crying, the warmth and love of her soul were making me strong enough to smile.

Mother is the best thing that you have guys. Respect her emotions. Love her. It was a real incident and I just put that into words. You never know how many times her blessings might have saved you. Hold the moments when they are in your hands. Time flies, make it worth.

Warm hugs 

It’s okay if you woke up at 9 on New year’s morning, just like others days. You are not in the mood to take a bath and freshen up your body.

You have no plans to go out and have fun with your friends and you want to sit in your cosy blanket just to watch your favourite movies.
It is perfectly fine if you are wearing a messy bun and haven’t trimmed your hair off to make a perfect hairdo.
Life will still be good if you have no “NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS”, you have no new targets to achieve, no new determinations for ‘so called’ “NEW YEAR, NEW LIFE”. Everyone is done with sending new year wishes but truly saying, no one is actually happy in their lives. Someone is busy with their work, someone is tired of fake smiles, others are getting rid of ‘no worth’ relationships and the list will be going on and on.
Out of them, some are actually happy, the ones who are happy to see others’ smiling. The ones who really know how to keep others happy, like I say, who knows how to dance in the fire.
Let’s get focused to ourself. You don’t need any particular day to begin your life’s motto. When you will start, your heart and hard work will put into an end. Spread smiles. Live happily. Help others. This time, help mother nature too. Give warm hugs to the cool shades during summers. Offer a shot of ‘wotah’ to birds. Plant more trees.
Believe in God, it is always in His hands to put everything into good sake of us. Trust yourself to make every day memorable.

Fire


The fire that burns the souls,
Destroys the happiness,
From the spark of hate,
A fire of violence, fights.
Have you ever danced in the fire?
With a sword of smile,
With the spark of hopes!

Lies

Life is all about choices. Some choose happiness over sorrows and some choose truth over lies. The one can choose happiness to spend this life, and to make this life happy, they choose some lies for their own satisfaction. Some lies that can help to escape the reality.

There are situations in one’s life, when he chooses negativity to run his life. This negativity is more about ruining other’s life, walking through wrong paths and so on. The  life is like healthy sleep, doctor advises you to not using any pillows, but you are bound to yourcozylife. Even he knows that the end is always bad for a bad, still he keeps on saying lies to himself. The lies of getting good out of something bad.

Some choose these lies to live the present, to live the best out of their life, to see some positivity in their negative life. Even when they know things are never going to work in their favor, they still have hopes and that courage of saying,’I Know, I’ll get it next time’. And trust me, there are few of this kind, who know how to spread the real smiles. When there is less food in plate and a wide smile saying,’One day, I’ll be having food in a 5 star hotel’, this takes courage and many of us on this earth are cowards.

These lies give more pleasure than the painful truths. Whether not permanent, one has to face the reality one day. But to make our dreams come true, we have to face some truths and accept some lies.